Resentment and hatred takes time to be gone. But I dont think I can do it. Its so hard being strong and acting as if Im not hurting and all is fine. Sometimes I wonder what Im working so hard for... Its so difficult to balance work and uni together, I feel so tired both physically and mentally. Why am I even being so thifty for? Why am I even starving myself in order to save up my lunch/dinner money for? Why am I even giving so many work shift till I barely have the time to study for exams? WHY.
Seeing my mom treating her precious son as if he's still 3 years old and its okay to keep making the same mistake over and over again disgusted me... Till the point that I'm starting to dislike my own mother, even the sight of her pisses me off. If she not gonna change her mindset, its all her fault if this family ever collapses.
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